Meditation
I sit to tend my thoughts and
Something fragile-green pushes it's way
Like a kindergartner's paper-cup bean sprout
Unfurling, struggling, shedding chinks of dirt,
Through the toil-soil of my soul.
Soul soil I thought was rotting, stinking, shameful
Debris of me
Turned into nurturing, blossoming, joyful
Seat of me
When I sat to tend my thoughts.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
some quotes for you
First though, I AM BACK ONLINE!!!
These are some quotes in some of my recent reading that have struck me. what do you think of them?
"Animals are wiser than us in that regard. If they don't feel peace, they aren't fooled by peaceful words."
--Buddha by Deepak Chopra, p 248
"God made something innocent in you that nothing can touch. Love that part, as I love it."
--Jesus by Deppak Chopra, p 142
"People don't know they see God everywhere. They think they see trees and hills and clouds."
--ibid, p 257
"If God is everywhere, he cannot be lost nor can he be found."
--ibid, p216
"The significant problems we have cannot be solved at the same level of thinking with which we created them."
--Einstein
"What lies behind us and what lies in front of us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson
"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
--Einstein
"How much longer will you go on letting your energy sleep? How much longer are you going to stay oblivious of the immensity of yourself"
--A Cup of Tea by Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
These are some quotes in some of my recent reading that have struck me. what do you think of them?
"Animals are wiser than us in that regard. If they don't feel peace, they aren't fooled by peaceful words."
--Buddha by Deepak Chopra, p 248
"God made something innocent in you that nothing can touch. Love that part, as I love it."
--Jesus by Deppak Chopra, p 142
"People don't know they see God everywhere. They think they see trees and hills and clouds."
--ibid, p 257
"If God is everywhere, he cannot be lost nor can he be found."
--ibid, p216
"The significant problems we have cannot be solved at the same level of thinking with which we created them."
--Einstein
"What lies behind us and what lies in front of us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson
"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
--Einstein
"How much longer will you go on letting your energy sleep? How much longer are you going to stay oblivious of the immensity of yourself"
--A Cup of Tea by Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
Sunday, July 5, 2009
discomfort
Was talking a friend the other day (hi friend!) and remembered this:
Discomfort isn't bad or to be avoided. Discomfort, whether physical or emotional or mental, is just an indicator that there's something we should look at or check out. Discomfort is actually exciting, because it means we have a real growth opportunity!
So next time you're uncomfortable, try thinking "Sweet! I have a great chance to learn something here!" instead of "Aw crud, this stinks, how am I gonna make this horrible feeling go away?" That's what I plan anyway... I'm actually looking forward to the next time I feel uncomfortable about something, because I am excited to keep learning and growing!
Discomfort isn't bad or to be avoided. Discomfort, whether physical or emotional or mental, is just an indicator that there's something we should look at or check out. Discomfort is actually exciting, because it means we have a real growth opportunity!
So next time you're uncomfortable, try thinking "Sweet! I have a great chance to learn something here!" instead of "Aw crud, this stinks, how am I gonna make this horrible feeling go away?" That's what I plan anyway... I'm actually looking forward to the next time I feel uncomfortable about something, because I am excited to keep learning and growing!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Summer Breeze
Its a gorgeous summer day, hot but with some breeze once in a while.
There's a lot of details of things to think about and decide and do with Play Partners. I do now own the domain www.playpartners.me... now I just have to put something there!
I haven't been walking as much as I'd like, nor have I been eating as well as I'd like. I think I need a diologue about that... about why I'm not. I know that I could just decide to, and I would. I mean, if it was a real decision. And I know that for whatever reason, 51% or more of me is not wanting to take the best care of my body that I could be. But why, oh why....
I started taking Vitamin D and had a few really great days, but I'm still taking it and am kinda down again. Who knows. Not way down, just kinda low energy and tired, a little uninterested in things. Well, no, that's not true. I'm interested, I'm just not motivated to actually do stuff.
I had a massage appointment scheduled today but got stood up. I left a message, but haven't heard from her yet. My neck is way tense, not sure what that's about... although maybe it's from sleeping too long, now that I think about it. I think I used to have really similar symptoms when I was kinda "making" myself stay in bed late and sleep in. Hmm.
I think that's it for now. Peace.
There's a lot of details of things to think about and decide and do with Play Partners. I do now own the domain www.playpartners.me... now I just have to put something there!
I haven't been walking as much as I'd like, nor have I been eating as well as I'd like. I think I need a diologue about that... about why I'm not. I know that I could just decide to, and I would. I mean, if it was a real decision. And I know that for whatever reason, 51% or more of me is not wanting to take the best care of my body that I could be. But why, oh why....
I started taking Vitamin D and had a few really great days, but I'm still taking it and am kinda down again. Who knows. Not way down, just kinda low energy and tired, a little uninterested in things. Well, no, that's not true. I'm interested, I'm just not motivated to actually do stuff.
I had a massage appointment scheduled today but got stood up. I left a message, but haven't heard from her yet. My neck is way tense, not sure what that's about... although maybe it's from sleeping too long, now that I think about it. I think I used to have really similar symptoms when I was kinda "making" myself stay in bed late and sleep in. Hmm.
I think that's it for now. Peace.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Play Partners
The business will be called Play Partners. I think. I'm pretty sure. I also like Play Paths but there's a therapy place in California that specializes in autism called "PlayPath Therapy" so I decided not to go there.
Things are good.
Things are good.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Hi, Dad!
Oh, I forgot that my dad and step-mother were here over this past weekend and it was great to see them!
HIJKL
OK, their mom's OTHER middle name starts with an H, so thats H I J K L, all nice and da vinci coded in a row. lol.
I am now in Charlotte, and pretty much settled (ie totally unpacked). I'm back with my old therapist, which I'm excited about. I did a lot of growing with her, and her style is a good mix of comfortable and challenge for me. I'm looking forward to more growing!
I'm doing weekly massages as well, rather than the acupuncture I was doing in Asheville. We'll see how that goes... better, worse, same, need to add acupuncture again...? I'm trying to be very conscious of my body. Sometimes its frustrating because I feel like my health is more delicate that most people's, what with the food sensitivities and getting sick/rundown a lot. Maybe I'm just more in touch with my body than most people? That would be nice. I get frustrated by comparisons. I try not to compare, but.... ah well. I do anyway.
What else... have had some offers to work with children, but I've decided to hold out for now. I am being really proactive about starting my own business, doing things in the ways that I really believe in. When working in programs I didn't help set up, or that aren't set up by Son-Rise (that's the methodology I trained in in Massachusetts), I find I am asked to do things that I'm just not totally comfortable with. For example, a mom wanted my goal to be to engage her son for every minute of the 4 hours I was with him. What?! A typical adult isn't engaged all of the time. We blank out for a few seconds, have a silence fall, think of other things... and in a child whose main issue seems to be an overwhelming need for timeouts from the world, I am just not comfortable trying to make him engage period, much less for 4 hours straight. I beleive that if an autistic child needs a break, great! Let him take care of himself by doing what he needs to to be as comfortable as possible. Anyway, let me get off that little soapbox there... ahem. For now I am holding out for a situation where I can believe 100% in what I am doing with and for a child.
I'm pleased with that idea, but I also have some fears about it being ok with other people that I'm passing up pay opportunities for what (for some) may seem some rather smallish principles. That's one of my new goals in therapy: working on being more comfortable being more authentic with other people that are a part of my life.
Meanwhile, I'm eating pretty well, walking (but not as much as I'd like), and gonna get reconnected to my Tai-Chi classes. The school I used to go to for it is a bit of a drive, but I love the atmosphere and philosophy there. It's worth it to me. Although, that's my other big therapy goal: I know what I need to do to feel good, so why am I unconsistent in doing it? How can I be more consistent? (Like, I know that dairy and sugar make me feel physically unwell as well as somewhat numb and lethargic emotionally. Yet I occasionally eat ice cream...)
No computer as yet, but soon, soon. I know I keep saying that.... I think I mean it this time, though.
I am now in Charlotte, and pretty much settled (ie totally unpacked). I'm back with my old therapist, which I'm excited about. I did a lot of growing with her, and her style is a good mix of comfortable and challenge for me. I'm looking forward to more growing!
I'm doing weekly massages as well, rather than the acupuncture I was doing in Asheville. We'll see how that goes... better, worse, same, need to add acupuncture again...? I'm trying to be very conscious of my body. Sometimes its frustrating because I feel like my health is more delicate that most people's, what with the food sensitivities and getting sick/rundown a lot. Maybe I'm just more in touch with my body than most people? That would be nice. I get frustrated by comparisons. I try not to compare, but.... ah well. I do anyway.
What else... have had some offers to work with children, but I've decided to hold out for now. I am being really proactive about starting my own business, doing things in the ways that I really believe in. When working in programs I didn't help set up, or that aren't set up by Son-Rise (that's the methodology I trained in in Massachusetts), I find I am asked to do things that I'm just not totally comfortable with. For example, a mom wanted my goal to be to engage her son for every minute of the 4 hours I was with him. What?! A typical adult isn't engaged all of the time. We blank out for a few seconds, have a silence fall, think of other things... and in a child whose main issue seems to be an overwhelming need for timeouts from the world, I am just not comfortable trying to make him engage period, much less for 4 hours straight. I beleive that if an autistic child needs a break, great! Let him take care of himself by doing what he needs to to be as comfortable as possible. Anyway, let me get off that little soapbox there... ahem. For now I am holding out for a situation where I can believe 100% in what I am doing with and for a child.
I'm pleased with that idea, but I also have some fears about it being ok with other people that I'm passing up pay opportunities for what (for some) may seem some rather smallish principles. That's one of my new goals in therapy: working on being more comfortable being more authentic with other people that are a part of my life.
Meanwhile, I'm eating pretty well, walking (but not as much as I'd like), and gonna get reconnected to my Tai-Chi classes. The school I used to go to for it is a bit of a drive, but I love the atmosphere and philosophy there. It's worth it to me. Although, that's my other big therapy goal: I know what I need to do to feel good, so why am I unconsistent in doing it? How can I be more consistent? (Like, I know that dairy and sugar make me feel physically unwell as well as somewhat numb and lethargic emotionally. Yet I occasionally eat ice cream...)
No computer as yet, but soon, soon. I know I keep saying that.... I think I mean it this time, though.
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