This Is How I Feel About "Small Talk"

"I can't learn anything from you, I can't read in some f**kin' book. Unless you want to talk about you, who you are. Then I'm fascinated. I'm in."
--Good Will Hunting

I Learned A New Word

Chiaroscuro. It means the art or practice of so arranging the light and dark parts to produce a harmonious effect. Usually it refers to art, but I'd very much like to make it refer to my life.

Being OK With Being OK

So basically, in the grand scheme of life, I'm doing OK. I have set backs and all, but who doesn't. Whereas, 5 or 6 years ago, I was really not doing OK. I mean, really... but I'll spare you the details.

But here's the interesting thing; sometimes I'm not OK with doing OK. For a lot of reasons, I suspect, but one is that (and I know in my head that this doesn't make much sense, but I feel it anyway) sometimes I feel like being OK now negates my past not-being-OK-ness. Like, somehow, if I was able to get over it, it wasn't actually all that bad.

And it kinda makes me interested in self-sabotage, just so that I can make sure that my troubled past isn't forgotten. I'm not even sure who I think shouldn't forget... me, you, my family, God... I have no idea. But the thought is often there, especially when it's just been pointed out to me how very OK I am doing now.

Great Things

(Wow, I'm long overdue for a Great Things post!)

Epic friendships

Violins

 

YouTube

Cherries

DVDs