I'll share more about Puerto Rico later (when I'm not still tired from it!). It was a good trip.
For now, I will just share that found a mucuna seed on the beach, along with a lot of hermit crabs. Also, I heard coqui frogs in the rain forest and visited the Arecibo radio telescope.
I LOVE the beach! And I am blessed to get to spend a week at the one pictured above, every year! This is the beach at Sawgrass, in Ponte Vedra Beach, Florida. There is something calming, and healing, about the ocean. It's almost exactly the same chemical make up as our blood. It's where we came from as a species. And it's so powerful in its tides and currents, just as we can be if we choose to. Of course, it doesn't hurt that the salt air does wonders for my sinuses!
Also, there's lots of wildlife in Ponte Vedra, that is different from the wildlife at home.
And, of course....
This one lived in the lagoon in our back yard. He was a little guy... about 5 feet.
And of course, I love being with my family. I go with my brother, his wife, and their 3 children.
Ahhhh, the beach.... so long, til next year!
When I tell people what I don't eat, I often get asked, "well, what the heck DO you eat?!" So here is a picture to answer that question.
So what we have here is, hummus and sunbutter (sunbutter is like peanut butter, but it's made from sunflower seeds), almond milk, olives, organic butter, and a bunch of organic fruits and veggies.
In my cupboard there is some quinoa, some rice, a bag of lentils, a bag of black beans, several kinds of nuts, a garlic clove, some ginger root, one bag of popcorn, a small jar of local honey, several jars of spices, and several herbal teas.
And that, my friends, is what I eat, with an occasional rice cake or rice cracker.
I have a problem with using that word sometimes. Especially when there's not a "reason" to back it up. For example:
"Wanna go out for breakfast?"
That is uncomfortable to me. Whereas
"Wanna go out for breakfast?"
"Aw, I have a doctor's appointment, I can't."
feels ok. There's a reason beyond "eh, just don't want to." I want to get to a place where how I feel is reason enough to do and not do things. Not how I feel like, am I sick. Just, if I'm interested in doing sometime. Maybe I wanna just stay home and read. Or not have to get dressed. Or whatever. While I do say no for this reason sometimes, without an "excuse," I feel uncomfortable when I do. Like I "should" be doing things...
This applies for nearly every kind of activity. Religious gatherings, family gatherings, purely social events... everything. I have this issue in every arena.
Why aren't my wants a good enough reason, in my head, to do or not do things? An issue to re-visit. Right now, I don't feel like looking deeper.
I had a really hard time falling asleep last night... really, I didn't get to sleep til about 6am. As a result, I've pretty much just woken up. I don't feel hungry at all. I don't even really want any lemonade, so I'm just having water right now. I imagine that as I wake up I'll get hungry again, or at least want some lemonade. I remain completely undecided as to whether today is my last day or not. I guess I'll see how it goes. I did lose about 4 pounds so far, I discovered. While weight loss isn't my goal, that is kinda exciting.
Meh, still not really hungry. I keep trying to think of something I might want to eat tomorrow, but nothing really sounds good. Maybe I'll just continue the detox, heh. I am kinda... not tired, really, but just blah. No energy for anything, not even thinking, really.
Never mind. I am hungry.
And also, I am starting to doubt my commitment... why am I doing this, again? Mostly I just want to go to Kabob Grill for some of their lovely rice and falafel. I have two vacations coming up where I suspect it will be hard to eat how I should be, anyway. So maybe I should save the detoxing for after that.... Isn't rationalization great...
Didn't give in to temptation. I will see this through for at least the three days. I haven't managed as much lemonade as recommended today, by far (I've only had two servings out of six), but there's still time.
Made it for the three days. I mean, once I go to bed and wake up. Which I'm about to do.
Update: I did wind up gulping down my 6th and final "lemonade" last night.
I'm a bit sluggish today, but not too bad. Still not feeling terribly hungry. Of course, right now that may be because I can feel the salt water rumbling around in my gut.
Interesting new craving: chicken fingers and french fries. Mmmm, processed deep-fried death, with ranch sauce.
Oooo, or fish and chips... with salt and vinegar...
Apparently fried is what I'm craving today. Grease, yum.
Hmm, that picture was supposed to make me realize how gross greasy, deep fried foods are... but its not working all that well.
I went out to buy more lemons, and got more maple syrup while I was at it. Temptations were everywhere. It turns out stores that sell lemons also sell other yummy foods, lol. And also, are located very near fast food places... that sell lovely greasy fries... which I wouldn't even have to get out of my car to buy. But I resisted!
I did notice though, at the store, that I'm a little bit trembly. Its not even enough that I notice it when I'm just sitting around at home, but my hands shook a bit while I was typing in stuff for my credit card.
Yeah, I thought something was weird. So each serving of lemonade is supposed to be 8 ounces, right? And I have this bottle I've been using to make it, so that I can put the lid on and shake it to mix it. On the bottle's label it says "8 ounces" and I kept thinking "wow, my concept of an ounce is really off." So just now I read under that where it says "servings per bottle: 2.5!" So yesterday I actually had about 12 servings, which is great! You are supposed to try to get 6 to 12. Oh wait. But that also means I need to be adding more lemon and maple than I have been. I suppose it balances out, since I still had the minimum of the lemon and all. Ah well, life is a learning process.
Encouraging new craving: celery with sunflower seed butter and raisins. At least I'm craving healthy stuff now!
I have a bit of a headache, so I put extra maple in the drink I'm on now. Hopefully that'll knock it out. I'm determined to last at least 3 days!
It is unlikely, but still possible, that I would strangle a kitten for some french fries. It's not so much that I'm hungry... I mean, my belly does feel empty but its not hurting or anything. I just feel like I need to *eat* something. And I'm definitely still craving high-calorie foods. The celery thing was a fluke.
I think I just swallowed a lemon seed.
Being tired helps stop cravings. Good night.