Devotion

I was just reading a little description-blurb about a documentary, and this is what it said: "In some religions, devotion is measured by physical suffering and self-inflicted pain."

That phrase "self-inflicted pain" struck a chord with me, as you might imagine.

And I had this kind of weird idea; what if my scars from "self-inflicted pain" are a kind of devotion to myself? I mean... clearly not healthy, not what I want. But all that aside... I feel like my scars are a sign of devotion to myself. A sign that I struggled but still remained alive and did whatever I could think of, even if it didn't seem to make sense, to stay that way.

In a way, I'm proud of them, because they represent my devotion to my self, and to my life.